Watching my son throw a ball and turn his hand, as if to say ‘where it go?’ a dozen odd times is making me think, what weird routine did my daughter do at that age? At the moment she’s asking everyone ‘what’s your favourite…’ again and again. That’s 2. But what did she do repeatedly at 1? And when the next baby comes, will I forget my sons?
Camera phones make catching these moments lot easier. But do you remember and are you making a separate ‘The weird stuff your kids did’ folder… I stopped making folders in my phone gallery when I became preggers with baby 2. Everything happens too quick and unplanned now. But I’ll most likely forget what I’m looking at in 6 months because they’re not.
Does anyone still use Facebook? I’ve always been a Reddit / Twitter gal. But used to use Facebook to save photos (on private settings). Stopped doing that too!
Everything is a mess right now. I hate living like this! Needs organising, if only these head aches would let me function! Pivoting a little a lot, but whether your preggers or not, how do you function mid head ache? Tie your head with a scarf/paracetamol? Or do you stop and wait for it to pass? Unfortunately with kids and pretty much being the only ‘main’ carer for them, letting it pass isn’t an option.
Another pivot… did anyone listen to the ‘sliced bread’ (I think the show is called) radio 4 show yesterday on painkillers? I half listened… forever hungry and needy babies at my feet make it difficult! Did they say paracetamol for headaches was effective even… or a placebo.
This chop and change of topics is a reflection of my life & my house right now. Things are literally everywhere. My husband is always tired and can’t help me… I’m pregnant and the symptoms just keep getting in the way of me doing anything. Having one child after the other is a blessing, I’m so grateful our family is becoming complete, but it really has played a toll on my health. More women and those supporting need to recognise this.
From the moment of conception, when the baby is taking from you to help grow it’s nerves and vessels… and your debilitating nausea to your growing baby, pelvic girdle pain, high blood pressure, causing all sorts of life changing symptoms. You and those around you not only need to accept your body (and mind) is changing, but you need to make changes to lifestyle.
This isn’t a rant… This is just me writing about how I’m slowly losing my mind but having to keep it together as I have too many people relying on me…
The cravings continue… Up to make myself Chicken Manchurian whilst feeling guilty that my 2yo is gonna be watching TV the whole time I’m cooking 😦
Peace and love
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